A Review and a New Year

I can't believe I haven't realized before how lucky I am. Isn't there a saying: those who have nothing to worry about will worry about nothing?

I've spent my "adult" years searching and searching for direction and fulfillment and desire. I've spent years regretting time gone past and fearing time to come. I've been secretly envious of my friends' accomplishments when I should be loudly celebrating. I've been embarrassed about my nothing when I should put it behind me. And I've neglected what I am, what I've made, what I've been passionate about, all in pursuit of creating a dream while hiding my head in the sand.

No more. What's worry, what's fretting if this or that fits me, what's crying about nothing? Even a bird is provided for, not the least for me.

And on the cusp of the new year, during this time of thanksgiving and family and review, I vow:

To look forward.
To create possibilities.
To make my self.

Going Forward

1. Rowed 10 min today
2. Bought more sock yarn
3. Started (a bit late!) studying for finals
4. Dishes

Still to do
1. Mail off passport renewal
2. Buy bookcase
3. Start meningioma protocol background

Ravelry knitting queue (they're piling up!):

Mmm

In lieu of a post today, I give you "How to prepare and serve bone marrow".

It made me drool~

Shoes!

So I bought a pair of Frye Dorado riding boots and they're soooo comfortable and nice and cute--but I'm a bit too short for it :( If only my legs are 2" taller! I'm trying to tell myself that the boots will fall down a bit since they are pull-on, but right now they are pushing on the little fat pad about my knees, boo...


(They look a little funky since I took the pictures upside down)

I really, really want to keep them! :(

Do I look like Puss in Boots? Maybe I should get a plumed hat and a little sabre for next Halloween.

Also I bought these purple Guess pumps. Piperlime is so great but bad for my savings.

Coco Transform~~~

Bunraku

Oh man, Josh Hartnett AND Gackt Camui are starring in the upcoming Bunraku. I am so watching that next year <3

/sighs dreamily

Books!

At the end of studying hard in biology for exams or some other deadline, I often long for a good, long book. The kind that needs cradling as I lie on floor pillows. I'm not sure what exactly drives me from science to literature, and the opposite happens when I'm struggling to work on my story--I'll crave medical journals instead of further wading in the depths of language.

Maybe this is my brain telling me a message. Like when I actually want to eat some salad. Though perhaps the analogy should end there, because truthfully I very rarely yearn for lettuce, and most of the time only consume it only as a vehicle to carry other edible things, like goat cheese and roasted beets.

I'm off to read for tomorrow's class, but here's my book stack I'm bringing with me on my business trip next week (well, it is an oncology meeting, so naturally I'm bringing novels):

- The Children's Hospital - this is a book written by one of our fellows, and I'm very interested in reading it so I can bother him with questions not related to work.
- Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell - this is a reread. I recently got her second book (a collection of short stories), The Ladies of Grace Adieu and Other Stories, and it made me want to reread the book. The book is a magical blend of Jane Austen and Harry Potter.

Speaking of books, I've been semi-tempted to get the Amazon Kindle. Only in a half-wistful, half-convinced way, because I don't understand how something with its promises can have such horrible product design. Even Nate would be embarrassed to use it in public. And the upcoming Kindle 2.0 is going to look even uglier. Amazon, please, make it like a large iPhone, and make the keyboard a touchscreen, and I'll take two for Christmas, I promise.